They say you teach what you have to learn and I am definitely doing just that. After experiencing 17 years of symptoms and 7 years of complete body breakdown, including chronic burnout, adrenal fatigue, severe energy depletion, hypoglycemia, glandular fever, candida, immune dysfunction, impaired organs, anxiety, panic attacks, depression and unwanted weight loss, I am extremely passionate about helping others so that they do not have to go through the same level of illness, emotional pain, trauma, and suffering that I had to endure.
From an early age I felt very unworthy, powerless, lacked self-esteem and felt as though I didn’t fit in or belong. These limiting beliefs affected my teens and early twenties and I ran a program of self-sabotage, denying my bodily needs, pushing my body beyond its limits, as well as abusing it with a poor diet, alcohol and recreational drugs. I also had unhealthy boundaries, constantly put others needs ahead of my own, was a chronic people pleaser and didn’t know how to say no.
I had also experienced a lot of trauma throughout my life which had never been healed. I didn't tell others about what had happened, and instead dealt with it all by burying everything inside as deep down as possible so I wouldn't have to feel the emotional pain which reinforced my feelings of unworthiness and disconnection. However, what I didn't realise until many years later, was how the energy and negative emotions from these traumatic incidents had not gone away after the events and were still stuck inside my body many years later, affecting my cells and organs on a very deep level.
From my early twenties I experienced a number of symptoms including anxiety, panic attacks & hypoglycemia, which were warning signs from my body to change the way I was living. I chose to ignore them and continued living the way I always had. Then in 2006 I experienced an event that changed my life forever. After a big night out partying with friends I had a terrifying 5 hour panic attack which ultimately led to adrenal fatigue. My heart raced for hours on end, with adrenaline and cortisol flooding my body. I was sure I was going to die. It felt like my heart was about to give out at any moment. My life was never the same from that time on. After that event every time I got sick with a cold or flu, did a session of cardio at the gym or had a night out drinking my body would crash for weeks at a time.
This was definitely the wake-up call that I needed and after a lifetime of abusing my body I finally started to take better care of myself. Adrenal crashes would still occur but not as frequently. Fast forward to 2013 when my young son kept bringing home lots of viruses and bugs home from preschool. My immune system couldn’t cope and after years of illness my health deteriorated rapidly. Body crash after body crash, weeks in bed at a time. Life was not about living anymore, it was about surviving. I desperately wanted to return to health and live a vibrant and fulfilling life, and more importantly have enough energy to keep up with my active son.
For years I tried unsuccessfully to get answers, going to numerous doctors and specialists to find out what was wrong, but they were unable to help or offer any solutions. Doctors made me feel hopeless, powerless and like I would never be able to recover and heal. However, I was determined to get better and felt deep down that there had to be a way to heal. Realising that Western Medicine had nothing to offer me, I explored natural, alternative methods.
With the help of some extremely gifted healers and mentors, I began my healing journey. I learned that healing is an inside out job that starts within and occurs on many different layers - the physical layer, energetic layer, emotional layer, mental layer and spiritual layer. In most cases true physical healing cannot occur without energetic, emotional, mental and spiritual healing. I began to see how the traumatic experiences from my past, poor nutrition, a party lifestyle, stress, unhealthy boundaries, as well as limiting conscious and subconscious beliefs were affecting my present and causing my symptoms.
Over the course of the next few years I learnt many effective tools to release the energy of past traumas, emotions and dis-empowering beliefs which were draining my energy and keeping me stuck in a state of disease. I radically changed my diet, learnt valuable self-love practices and spent endless hours listening to every talk and reading every book I could find on healing, personal growth, empowerment, the power of the mind and spirituality.
The healing path is never smooth and although I was making progress the ongoing illness put a lot of strain on my marriage which weighed me down physically and emotionally. The marriage ended amicably in 2016.
Since then my health has improved considerably as I finally put my needs first, found peace with the past and present, and reconnected to the things that brought me joy including laughing and playing with my son, riding and competing on my horse, plus spending time in nature. I now feel fully recovered and in fact have never felt so good. After years of experiencing little or no energy and missing out on life, I can't believe how incredible it feels to be so healthy and to truly live life once more.
I am so grateful for the health issues I experienced and for all I learnt on my healing journey. It has helped me to grow and evolve in ways I never expected. I have learnt to see the perfection in everything, the good times and the bad. In the hardest and messiest times of our lives there is so much to learn and when you reach the other side life is so much sweeter and precious. Having so much to overcome the sense of freedom and contentment I now feel is phenomenal.
I continue to absorb and learn as much as I can about various healing modalities. and have now also completed a Havening Techniques course and are working towards becoming a Havening Practitioner. Havening was created by Neuroscientist Dr. Ronald Ruden, and is a revolutionary new technique that heals emotional disturbances, past traumas and phobias. I have also completed Reiki Level 1, Healing Touch Levels 1, 2, 3, and 4, and are currently working towards becoming a Healing Touch Practitioner. Healing Touch is a heart centered, gentle energy therapy which encourages the body to re-balance and heal.
Nothing brings me more joy than to help and inspire people on their healing journey, either through one on one sessions or workshops.